Don’t you hate it when you check someone’s blog and it’s been the same goddamn thing for a week? I do.
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It is raining today. You may be thinking, ‘Of course it is, Jenny. You live in the Pacific Northwest. You expect SUN in May? Please.’ But it has been SO nice for the last few weeks. I got used to it. I forgot where I lived. Consequently, I have not had an appropriately Friday attitude today. Must buck up.
Ahhh… that feels better.
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Children are still playing Quack Didlioso*. Today at J-O-B, there was a group of 5th or 6th gradish kids waiting for their school bus on the grass out front. They were on a field trip to the theater next door. The windows were open and I was doing some mind numbing data entry when I heard the song.
Quack didlioso quack quack quack
Samerico rico rico rico
fahlorah falorah
falor falor falor
fa-LOR
ONE TWO THREE FOUR
I just cracked myself up writing that down. What are those words? Are there actual WORD words, and I was maybe a stupid child? About three rounds went by before the tune wiggled it’s way into my awareness. Once I realized what it was, I got up from my desk in my badly lit corner, and walked across the office, opened the heavy old window and leaned way out. I could see the circle, and I watched a game all the way to the end when the loudest, biggest boy won. The air felt nice and the kids looked happy and I was glad to be out of my corner.
* I am POSITIVE I spelled that correctly. But really, who decides?
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Speaking of being out of my corner, my last day at J-O-B is August 4th*. I am going to be starting a completely new and different job in a completly new and different field**. It is blowing. My freaking. Mind. In a good way. I have learned SO much in the last few days, I am afraid I am going to lose some of it. Every now and then, I have to have a mini melt down about how in the hell anyone ever thought I could do this, but then I get over myself and keep trying. SB is really great with his pep talks. He was in my position not too long ago, so he remembers what it is like to feel dumb all the time. I do not like to feel dumb. I know everything, didn’t you know?
It has been a really long time since I have been challenged. I want to do so well. I want to prove I can do it. I want to earn more than a non-profit pee-on salary. All this makes my stomach hurt a little.
In a good way.
* doing dance of joy
** the tech industry? really? Yes, really. I know. I can’t beleive it either.
